January 5th, 2018
For we all have sinned, and fall short of the glory of God.
Often, what we show on the surface is different than what we truly believe or feel. More often then not, we are putting up a shield, a barrier to protect us from the people in this world. Often from those that are the closest to us.
Because often, those are the people who hurt us more than a stranger. Those closest to us are the ones who we care about their opinions and their thoughts. We care about how they perceive us, and we want those perceptions to be perfect.
When I came forward about my domestic abuse, the first person I told was a coworker. Someone I’d maybe gone to lunch with a few times, but never spent anytime outside of work with. And once I told him, it was easier and easier to come forward to others. It took until the restraining order hearing until I told my own mom, she didn’t even know until that day I had a temporary restraining order on my ex.
If I had only told someone sooner, I wouldn’t had spent 6 1/2 years with him.
Sometimes, we need to let that guard down, we need to talk about what we don’t want to talk about and we need to let the surface show, what is truly brewing just below.